1 You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, LORD,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
Two verses in specific caught my eye in this Psalm.
The first verse, you have searched me LORD, and you know me. The majority of the rest of the Psalm goes on to tell how much the Lord really does know us. But just that statement alone scares me a little. God searches me. He knows my heart. He knows my thoughts. He knows my every move, and were I to hide from Him, the darkness is not even dark to Him. As scary as this thought is, it also has an element of comfort to it. God knows my thought processes. God knows my intentions. An all-knowing God is bigger than me, my situation, or my sins.
Then the twenty-third verse, a prayer. Search me, God, and know my hear; test me and know my anxious thoughts. We know that God does know us. To ask Him to come in and search our hearts, we openly invite the all-knowing, loving, and just (therefore judge) God to come and know us in a way that is impossible for us to imagine. That is a very intimidating prayer. The verse following this one, see if there is any offemsove way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Whenever I read this I kind of feel like the author is being a bit presumptuous, “go ahead, see if there is any fault in me” kind of a thing. I know this is probably not what the author was thinking, but it still strikes me as odd. But maybe, maybe he meant, “see if there is any offensive way in me…work with me…heal me…change me” in order that he might be lead in the way everlasting. After having thought about it that way, that makes more sense.
This is not a very long post, but I’ll call it quits here, and end it with this being my prayer,
Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.